So my grandmother is doing better. My little sister called me and we had a nice conversation and she let me know that our older sister (who I am estranged from) went to visit Nina in the hospital today and spent the day with her doing her hair and nails, trimming her whiskers. She got her to eat lunch and then they watched the soaps together. She’s due to be released from the hospital monday morning.
It sounds kind of like she’s losing it a bit, though. My dad told me my aunt was with her the other day and she was very demanding, but she kept demanding opposite things. And I guess she upset my aunt so much that my uncle bought her roses. And then today she asked for a sleeping pill at 11am, but they didn’t give her one and then my sister got there. As much as I regret not being able to be up there and being there for her, I’m kind of grateful that I don’t have to see her like this. Is that awful of me? Am I terrible? I feel terrible.
Unfortunately, I gave myself food poisoning last night and have been chained to my bathroom ever since. My stomach feels like an alien is growing in it and even though I feel hungry (stomach growling + hunger cramps + headache from low blood sugar), I have no appetite - nothing sounds good to me. I keep eating saltines, and I think it’s helping. I feel so guilty because I’m super broke and I really need to work tonight but uh… that is just not possible. Fuckkkkkkkk.
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